Welcome to Week 7 of the Artists Way with myself and Christine!
How many days this week did you do your morning pages? Have you allowed yourself to daydream a few creative risks? Are you coddling your artist child with childhood loves? This week I did my morning pages every day. It’s not always easy, and I don’t always do them right when I wake up. Sometimes, I can’t get them done until I’ve checked off a few other items on the to do list… kind of the opposite of what Cameron wants of us, but I have to also do what works for not just my creative brain, but my anxious, depressed brain. As for “allowing myself to daydream a few creative risks,” um… idk? I live in a constant state of daydream. I’m a writer, for chrissakes. But I am continuing to take the same creative risk I’ve been taking since the start of this program – sharing my work with someone… It feels so vulnerable yet right, and I trust them with my soul.
Did you do your artists date this week? Did you use it to take any risks? What did you do? How did it feel? Artist dates are very hard for me, namely the part where you leave the house. I can set time aside to play, but leaving is very hard for me, This week on my days off, I am going to give in and stay home… Next week is a long week for me, a 6 day work week starting with a clopen and I will be training the entire week… it’s also the week my ovaries will be having a freakout, and I am already feeling the pre-symptoms of that… so I am going to stay here this week and relax and do one of my FAVORITE winding down activities: watching art journaling videos on youtube and decorating the pages of my own journal. So no risks, but exactly what I need.
Did you experience any synchronicity this week? I hate that this is a question every week now. Thank U, Next.
Were there any other issues this week that you consider significant for your creative recovery? Holy shit, yes. I am grappling with a lot right now, worrying about choices I’ve made in my life, choices I will make in my life, wanting to slap my old self, but having compassion for her as doing what she had to do to survive… I don’t come from money, I don’t come from people who could give me all of these opportunities.. I don’t believe in the bootstraps mentality…but the older I get the more I wish I could go back in time and talk to my younger self. I am an adult and I feel like a lost little kid… but the details are for the morning pages, not here.
I DID connect with my inner child (? teen?) this week. I watched Beetlejuice. I wrote down two novel ideas to work on when I’m done with novel 1. I listened to Alexz Johnson’s amazing music. If you haven’t heard of her, or only know her through Instant Star, please do yourself a favor and look her up wherever you listen to music!